to Army Judge: Words cannot express how grateful I am for your educated opinion … I know I must not rely on it as gospel, however, I’m hopeful that at least I can put this nightmare on a shelf until I have to face the music, and not allow it to occupy my every waking moment … the worst scenario’s keep replaying in my brain until I’m ready to explode … I cannot describe how physically sick I become each time I flash back to that day … my stomach is one tremendous sickening knot … I have truly learned my lesson.