I'm back.
The stroy is that I have brain damage and have limits. They're not bad in my opinion. I can still walk, think, talk, and act appropriately. I'm a bit slow...but it's not really a big deal. I drown when I was 21 months old.
My brain damage is a bit hard to deal with at times, but...at least it's not worse.
On top of that my dad is mentally, verbally, and emotionally abusive. I always knew there was something wrong with him...just didn't know what. Mom divorced him in 2001. She stayed in town until my younger sister and I finished school. Then she moved to California for a job with good pay. She found a man to marry and stayed out there, eventually inviting me to stay with her. She said the school was great, but it was a joke. I soon learned that the only reason she invited me was to get me away from dad.
Two years later in February 2007, I was raped so she sent me back to be with dad.
Just after my 21st birthday dad took me to court and asked for guardianship. He brought up all these mistakes I made years ago that were supposed to remain private. He got the guardianship.
I was fine with it at first, but now...I want my own life and it's driving me insane and I do not want or need this.
Dad does not know what privacy is. He treats me like I'm nine. He's put me in a TBI(Tramatic Brain Injury) class witch I have skipped many times because I do not feel that I need it.
I don't know what is wrong with dad, but he's just screwed up. He's put blocks all over this computer.
I'm really not sure how to explain it.
I am perfectly capable of living on my own. I have some issues and I just need to keep an eye on them.
I really wish I could put my papers up. They explain it so much better. Maybe if I censor it... Part of my brain damage is that my hand-eye co-ordination is messed up. I am not allowed to drive. I'm fine with it, but...it's very irritating that I can't go anywhere on my own. I can't travel or go check out places or anything unless someone is with me. I wouldn't mind that normally but my family drives me nuts.
They all think I'm retarded just because I have a few problems. I have asked to have an apartment on a bus route, but they refused. Why? Just because I don't keep the house spotlessly clean and because I don't make 100's on every test or homework assignment.
I do have safty issues as well. I don't always make great decisions when it comes to friends. That's really it. One reason why I don't always allow myself to make friends. I know my limits very well, as I am the one who has to deal with them on a daily basis.
I know that I will never be rid of the brain damage, and that doesn't bother me. My family is what gets to me. I want to get away...but I can't because daddy dearest is my legal guardian and I cannot make my own choices until the guardianship is dropped.
Dad yells about nothing. I realize he has a stressful and demanding job(OBGYN), but still he could be a bit more understanding.
I really don't know to explain this. All I know is that he's abusive and I want out. I deserve much better then just sitting in front of the computer all day doing nothing. I want to get out of this and never have to deal with him or the family again. I'm tired of waiting, so I'm finally doing something about it, as small as it is I'm writing to you and asking for your advise, seeing as you are lawyers and such.
Maybe I didn't explain everything correctly, but I did the best I could and will answer questions. I wish I could explain better...but for now, this is all I've got.
I'll keep trying to put up my papers.
