scalesofjustice
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- Oregon
There has got to be a way for me to have access to mental health/ addictions treatment services that meed my needs. I am dually diagnosed and have been since the age of 17. I have ADD , the inattentive type. I'm not hyper, I'm just constantly distracted or quite literally forget what it is that I'm doing..I am 35 and have dealt with the struggle my entire adult life. I was briefly relieved for a course of three years while being treated with medications and cognitive behavioral therapy. For the first time ever I was able to function at a level equal to and even greater than my peers. I then missed an appointment, and another....this is me five years later. Lost my house, my career in the medical field, ended up in a horribly violent relationship and became the victim of domestic violence and sexual assaults. All my trauma is based around alocohol. My abuser was an alcoholic and forced me to drink or suffer physical abuse. I had ten years sobriety from alcohol up until that point. The abuse I suffered was so great that I began to disassociate during my initial interview by police.
I got a dui and ended up failing court ordered diversion because their treatment services were impossible and I felt as though they did not accomidate my disability and that they actually caused me more harm then good. I have a long standing history with failing to appear on anything, ive lost countless jobs, my family stopped inviting me to functions years ago and ive been fired from every doctor due to failure to come to scheduled appointments...I am at a loss. I can't complete the programs because they will not make a reasonable accomidation to their "rules" and I will fail just by being late or not showing up and that is not fair because with out medication and treatment I can't function in society. I have multiple failure to appears on my recod for simply forgetting despite reminders, I loose the reminders or forget to look at them I've tried everything. I informed the courts that I had this disability and asked that they provide me some sort of support so that my mental illness doesn't end up making me a convict. Now I'm facing felony failure to appear charges despite my pleas to the ADA coordinator and I'm looking at sentencing on my conviction of dui for failure to complete treatement. I literally can not sit in a room full of strangers and discuss how alcohol impacted my life. I get triggered and once I begin the process of disassociation.....I'm literally a mess a complete wreck for days and it itsn't fair. I need a trauma based dual diagnosis treatment service in order to truly get the help I need and deserve and the courts aren't listening to me. It's a one size fits all treatment model and feel it is discriminatory and that they are not taking my disability seriously. I want so badly to be a productive member of society once again and live and work amongst my former friends and family but in this condition and with my new found legal nightmare I don't see it happening. How can I fight for my rights...my public defender refers to our county as SCAM HILL county instead of its true name of yamhill county. There is scandal everywhere and the public defenders office is in the middle of a full on probe by local press and their contract with the state ends in January...that means I may or may not have the same representation at the end of my cases as I do now....I have done my part, I have asked jail staff before being released to help me get services, I have tried going into mental and behavioral health crisis services but the process is long and takes multiplt visits and often times I end up triggered and unable to even go or I just plain forget as if it weren't my freedom on the line...but that is the naure of a brain like mine...it just doesn't function like it should and I'm left hopeless and angry, frustrated and wanting answers or options. Any Advice?
I got a dui and ended up failing court ordered diversion because their treatment services were impossible and I felt as though they did not accomidate my disability and that they actually caused me more harm then good. I have a long standing history with failing to appear on anything, ive lost countless jobs, my family stopped inviting me to functions years ago and ive been fired from every doctor due to failure to come to scheduled appointments...I am at a loss. I can't complete the programs because they will not make a reasonable accomidation to their "rules" and I will fail just by being late or not showing up and that is not fair because with out medication and treatment I can't function in society. I have multiple failure to appears on my recod for simply forgetting despite reminders, I loose the reminders or forget to look at them I've tried everything. I informed the courts that I had this disability and asked that they provide me some sort of support so that my mental illness doesn't end up making me a convict. Now I'm facing felony failure to appear charges despite my pleas to the ADA coordinator and I'm looking at sentencing on my conviction of dui for failure to complete treatement. I literally can not sit in a room full of strangers and discuss how alcohol impacted my life. I get triggered and once I begin the process of disassociation.....I'm literally a mess a complete wreck for days and it itsn't fair. I need a trauma based dual diagnosis treatment service in order to truly get the help I need and deserve and the courts aren't listening to me. It's a one size fits all treatment model and feel it is discriminatory and that they are not taking my disability seriously. I want so badly to be a productive member of society once again and live and work amongst my former friends and family but in this condition and with my new found legal nightmare I don't see it happening. How can I fight for my rights...my public defender refers to our county as SCAM HILL county instead of its true name of yamhill county. There is scandal everywhere and the public defenders office is in the middle of a full on probe by local press and their contract with the state ends in January...that means I may or may not have the same representation at the end of my cases as I do now....I have done my part, I have asked jail staff before being released to help me get services, I have tried going into mental and behavioral health crisis services but the process is long and takes multiplt visits and often times I end up triggered and unable to even go or I just plain forget as if it weren't my freedom on the line...but that is the naure of a brain like mine...it just doesn't function like it should and I'm left hopeless and angry, frustrated and wanting answers or options. Any Advice?